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  <title>Ignorance isn't always bliss, or is it?</title>
  <subtitle>Fojah</subtitle>
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    <name>Fojah</name>
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  <updated>2006-12-23T19:30:35Z</updated>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:42462</id>
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    <title>blankie pictures!</title>
    <published>2006-12-23T19:27:27Z</published>
    <updated>2006-12-23T19:30:35Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;table style="width:auto;"&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td&gt;&lt;a href="http://picasaweb.google.com/littleclaus08/Blankets121706/photo#5010817096030703698"&gt;&lt;img src="http://lh4.google.com/image/littleclaus08/RYn_mbNdUFI/AAAAAAAAAC4/2pU_kTM5MZ0/s288/P%20065.jpg"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td style="font-family:arial,sans-serif; font-size:66%; text-align:right"&gt;From &lt;a href="http://picasaweb.google.com/littleclaus08/Blankets121706"&gt;Blankets!!! 1...&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;/table&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Here are the blankets we made.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;table style="width:auto;"&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td&gt;&lt;a href="http://picasaweb.google.com/littleclaus08/Blankets121706/photo#5010817143275343986"&gt;&lt;img src="http://lh3.google.com/image/littleclaus08/RYn_pLNdUHI/AAAAAAAAADI/i4Z0nepF_cQ/s288/P%20067.jpg"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td style="font-family:arial,sans-serif; font-size:66%; text-align:right"&gt;From &lt;a href="http://picasaweb.google.com/littleclaus08/Blankets121706"&gt;Blankets!!! 1...&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;/table&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;table style="width:auto;"&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td&gt;&lt;a href="http://picasaweb.google.com/littleclaus08/Blankets121706/photo#5010817194814951570"&gt;&lt;img src="http://lh3.google.com/image/littleclaus08/RYn_sLNdUJI/AAAAAAAAADY/OfqHvBy1r2o/s288/P%20069.jpg"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;tr&gt;&lt;td style="font-family:arial,sans-serif; font-size:66%; text-align:right"&gt;From &lt;a href="http://picasaweb.google.com/littleclaus08/Blankets121706"&gt;Blankets!!! 1...&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/td&gt;&lt;/tr&gt;&lt;/table&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And here's us jumping on them :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;We are taking these to a women and children's shelter in Portland.  Merry Christmas to them!</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:42026</id>
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    <title>So much, I'll try.</title>
    <published>2006-12-23T19:14:32Z</published>
    <updated>2006-12-23T19:14:32Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Third Day Christmas Album</lj:music>
    <content type="html">So I told Kyla I would try to update this thing every once in a while with some bullet points of what's going on in my life.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;-I go back to school in only 10 days!  I am super excited but really sad too... I will miss being down here.  It's so relaxing and I love my Gresham friends.  I guess this just means that Kirstin and Jess will have to come visit me now :)&lt;br /&gt;-I have been super crafty recently: blankets, scarves, scrapbooks, editing and framing pics, and MORE.&lt;br /&gt;-I miss Kellen a lot but am ecstatic at the fact that soon we will actually be in the same place:)&lt;br /&gt;-I wish I had more time because I want to hang out with people but don't know how to balance family and friend time.&lt;br /&gt;-I'm 21!  I forgot my ID on my birthday!!!  So... my mom took me out for a drink later after dinner.&lt;br /&gt;-I really like all the presents I got for my family this year.&lt;br /&gt;-I have enjoyed being home because it allows me to think.  Boy have I thought!  Philosophy, Religion, Spirituality, Christmas (and the awful commercialism of it!), war, etc.&lt;br /&gt;-I am getting sad that Fab will be leaving this year.  She is the most amazing person and I am blessed to have such a great roommate.  What will I do next year?!?!?! Live with Bekah probably :)&lt;br /&gt;-I want to travel A LOT this summer.  Switzerland, Belgium, Mexico and California are what's on the list so far.  Depending on where Kellen is, either North Carolina or Colorado will make the list also.&lt;br /&gt;-I will be in auntie in February!  We are all getting very excited.  I am going to spoil her ROTTEN.  But mark my words, she will NOT be a brat.&lt;br /&gt;-Work is getting harder.  Too many people are jerk faces who get pets but then want to just euthanize them when they actually cost money.  I really am sick of inconsiderate, selfish people.&lt;br /&gt;-I ate in a bar with my mom the other day.  It was weird. He he.&lt;br /&gt;-I am nervous for next quarter.  I'm taking 18 credits and working 3 days a week.  My question is... when will I ever do homework or have a social life?&lt;br /&gt;-I am glad my mom will be coming to visit me in Seattle.  That makes me happy.&lt;br /&gt;-I am so in love with Jesus.  He is my provider in every aspect of my life.  I love him.&lt;br /&gt;-I have learned to take no day for granted.  We have no guarantee of life and for that reason I aspire to make the most of every moment.  Feel free to help me :)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!  Please celebrate this holiday as the birth of our Savior.  And so you know... our Savior is not money.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:41956</id>
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    <title>ok</title>
    <published>2006-09-28T08:36:01Z</published>
    <updated>2006-09-28T08:36:01Z</updated>
    <lj:music>none</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I don't understand time.  It seems to move so slowly but yet when reflecting on the last two months it seems that so much has passed.  I wish I could say this was all good but it wasn't.  I have had a major slap in the face that God is real and He is the one who has the world in his hands.  I can think all I want that things won't happen to me, but they can and there is no reason I should think they won't.  I wish that I could fast forward to ten years down the road when this is all supposedly easier.  The healing process is so much further along and the hard times are fewer and farther between.  Right now, neither of these is true.  There are so many things each day that rise up anger, bitterness, sorrow, fear and angst in me.  I want them to all go away.  This makes me think of the movie Garden State where the main character finally makes the decision to go off all his meds.  Once he makes this decision he feels emotions, good and bad.  I suppose I should be thankful for my emotions.  I sure don't want to be apathetic in this time but I hate hurting.  The one thing I know for sure is Jesus is my best friend and He is holding me so close right now, I can't tell where I end and He begins.  He is my true love.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:41582</id>
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    <title>hell</title>
    <published>2006-06-06T03:56:27Z</published>
    <updated>2006-06-06T03:56:27Z</updated>
    <lj:music>talia's mix it up playlist on iTunes!</lj:music>
    <content type="html">well... i am currently sitting in the library trying to finsih this 8 page paper that must be done by tomorrow morning.  i also have to miraculously find some time to study for my two finals tomorrow.  i suppose i can't complain since i spent my entire weekend hanging out and dancing (literally) so... yay for having fun and then getting super stressed.  by tomorrow at  3 i will be the happiest person ever, ok not really but in comparison to me today it will seem like it.  ok back to work now.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:41455</id>
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    <title>all i wanted</title>
    <published>2006-05-27T02:42:44Z</published>
    <updated>2006-05-27T02:42:44Z</updated>
    <content type="html">i suck at updated this blasted thing but here's a quick attempt.  i'm doing alright.  i'm anxious for school to be done but not to leave seattle.  i can't say i'm not nervous for this summer but i will be glad to spend that much time with my family.  i'll miss everyone in seattle of course but it's only a little over three months.  plus the most important people (except kellen sadly) are either in washington or oregon so i'll be fine.  i am super excited to see my p-town peeps who i have not seen in FOREVER.  uh, life is really stressful but i have an amazing strength from the one true God so i'm doing fine.  i'm just waiting around right now for my dang friends k and k to show up!!!!!!!  then we're off to see the new x-men with steve and javier plus oooh... they're here!!!!!!!!!</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:40831</id>
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    <title>Lookie what I did :)</title>
    <published>2006-05-08T23:35:12Z</published>
    <updated>2006-05-08T23:35:12Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So, I go out of the country and look what happens...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://photobucket.com" target="_blank"&gt;&lt;img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v470/littleclaus/P5080157.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yes, it's real.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:40194</id>
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    <title>Good song</title>
    <published>2006-04-21T17:37:42Z</published>
    <updated>2006-04-21T17:37:42Z</updated>
    <lj:music>nickel creek, duh!</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I had never heard of this group but I just found them and love their music.  Read this song, it's good.  Just thought I'd share it because I enjoy it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;THE HAND SONG, by: Nickel Creek&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The boy only wanting to give mother something,&lt;br /&gt;And all of her roses had bloomed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Looking at him as he came rushing in,&lt;br /&gt;without knowing her roses were doomed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;All she could see were some thorns buried deep,&lt;br /&gt;And tears that he cried as she tended his wounds.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And she knew it was love, it was what she could understand.&lt;br /&gt;He was showing his love and that's how he hurt his hands.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He still remembers that night as a child, on his mothers knee.&lt;br /&gt;She held him close and she opened her Bible, and quietly started to read.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Then seeing a picture of Jesus, he cried out:&lt;br /&gt;"Mama he's got some scars just like me!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And he knew it was love, it was what he could understand.&lt;br /&gt;He was showing his love, and that's how he hurt his hands.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;[instrumental break]&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Now the boy is grown and moved out on his own.&lt;br /&gt;When Uncle Sam comes along.&lt;br /&gt;A foreign affair, but our young men are there.&lt;br /&gt;And luck had his number drawn.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It wasn't that long till our hero was gone, he gave to a friend what he learned from the cross.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But they knew it was love, it one they could understand.&lt;br /&gt;He was showing his love, and that's how he hurt his hands.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It was one they could understand.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He was showing his love, and that's how he hurt his hands.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:40173</id>
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    <title>Can anybody tell me what's going wrong?</title>
    <published>2006-04-19T04:08:32Z</published>
    <updated>2006-04-19T04:08:32Z</updated>
    <lj:music>iTunes Party Shuffle, yay!</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Well... I just sat down to do my homework so of course I am instead doing something else.  Fab and I just finished touring apartments for next year.  Oh man, I am so excited.  There are ones that we found that we like the most which have a completely separate study!  Isn't that insane???  We have no idea if we will get it we sure hope so.  I wish I knew what was up for next year.  Mom has no idea and neither do I.  These are the times where I just have to lean on God (even though I should be all the time anyway) and say, "Ok, I have no control and no say in what happens so just keep me posted."  I have been so amazed by the astonishing number of people who are praying for my family and offering to help.  I am really looking forward to going home this weekend.  I have to be honest: I don't always look forward to going home.  I end up getting all stressed out and every time I come home reality hits me.  In some ways I think it is harder for me at times because I get so much time away from everything.  Then, when I come home it's a realization of how much everything sucks and is hard.  But this happens every time I go, it just gets harder each time.  Since I am not there everyday I feel that I can sometimes see the differences more.  No, maybe it's not that but more that they hit me harder because for me the change comes in huge waves every other weekend instead of little ripples everyday.  Life at school has not been the easiest thing recently.  I have been really stressed with a particular friendship that is tearing me up because I cannot figure out what to do in it.  I've been looking for scholarships.  I got one!  My first scholarship ever!!!!!  It was for such a random amount: $493.  Whatever, it's money and it paid for my car to get fixed.  What else?  Ummm, school has been hard for me to keep up.  I'm glad I am taking less credits this quarter because it has been really hard for me to focus plus I'm working more hours at my job.  Whenever I sit down to do homework I start writing or reading instead.  I can't think about anything.  I have two papers due tomorrow morning by 10.  I have no idea how I'll finish them but I have 13 hours so I should get started.  I think I feel an all-nighter coming on.  I hate all-nighters, they make me want to cry...</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:39922</id>
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    <title>ergh</title>
    <published>2006-03-08T19:05:59Z</published>
    <updated>2006-03-08T19:05:59Z</updated>
    <lj:music>some radio in the bathroom</lj:music>
    <content type="html">hospitals... bleh.  no fun.</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:39509</id>
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    <title>whatev</title>
    <published>2006-02-14T09:57:53Z</published>
    <updated>2006-02-14T09:57:53Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I'm not really sure why I just decided I wanted to write a journal entry.  Probably because I was up editing pictures when I was supposed to be working on a project.  Things are going... okay.  I've been really stressed.  Things are getting worse at home and I am feeling more and more guilty every day I am away.  Boys are stupid.  Today is singles awareness day and a friend of mine just joined me in being single.  Poor guy.  School is good despite being a bit overwhelming right now.  I love all my classes and am always working hard.  I want to go to bed so I am going to be done now.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:39416</id>
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    <title>change your mind</title>
    <published>2006-01-07T22:23:56Z</published>
    <updated>2006-01-07T22:23:56Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Green Day</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I really do hate how I never feel like I have enough money.  I know this is the complaint of every other average American but it just bothers me.  Why do we all have to have our lives revolve around stupid little pieces of paper just because someone once gave them power?  I think I'm going to turn communist now.  Ok, not really but seriously I need more money.  The rich need to share with the less fortunate so the scales are balanced.  I'll know by tomorrow if my financial situation will be alright or not.  PLEASE LET IT BE OK!</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:39065</id>
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    <title>no flipping way</title>
    <published>2005-12-30T08:03:54Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-30T08:03:54Z</updated>
    <lj:music>my sobbing</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I have to buy a new car.  It came so suddenly.  I love my car so much.  It holds so many memories and has been so faithful.  Our time together has been ended so suddenly.  I'm depressed, overwhelmed, worried and not sure how this all work out.  When I look back over the last year I see that it all started off on a bad foot (literally) so I pray that my New Year's Day this year will be absolutely amazing.  If so then my hope for the new year will be encouraged.  If anyone knows someone who is selling a car (a good quality car, no more junkers for me) please call me.  I am looking for something around $5000 to $6000, preferably a toyota or subaru.  If you really want to know why I need a new car or how Rusty Cherry was ripped from life, feel free to ask.  I need to talk about it to help me heal *tear slowly rolls down my left cheek*.  She was a good little car.  She was good to me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;R.I.P. Rusty Cherry.  You will be missed.</content>
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    <title>Waaaaayyyyyyy too long</title>
    <published>2005-12-05T19:48:19Z</published>
    <updated>2005-12-05T19:48:19Z</updated>
    <lj:music>tick tock of my little white clock</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Well, it has almost been two whole months since I last wrote in here.  Wow, that's a long time.  That makes me a little unsure of what the heck to write.  I am just starting my finals week.  Today is my last day of classes (reviewing in Child Development and Christmas Carols in French).  Straight from class I'm heading off to work and then coming back here to meet my lovely roommate and Javier for dinner.  I have eaten in Gwinn so much less than I thought I would.  It's great because now when I actually go to Gwinn I get such a huge welcome from all the people who are still in the dorms.  They flip out because I am actually in Gwinn, I love it.  Last time I went Courtney picked me up, Kadie hugged me so tight I thought I would burst and Jen was more excited than I ever see her.  It was marvelous.  Life has been alright.  It's definitely been having it's ups and downs but God has blessed me with optimism.  Despite my circumstances at times when I feel a little down, God sends me someone or something to pick me up.  He's awesome.  I have been challenged by Kellen to stop using the word awesome for things that are not truly 'awe inspiring'.  It's been hard because I used to use that word so often.  I still do but it's slowly being changed.  I have been stretched and pulled, tossed all about and grown SO much this quarter.  I owe a ton of that to Ufdn 2000 and Dr. Nienhuis.  It's been great to see God working in my life but at times I feel so confused.  Then, I get all excited just thinking of the infinite number of things I can learn.  The best part is once I have learned a million times more than I know now, I have yet to even scratch the surface.  Is this not the most exciting thing?  Oh, I love God.  With that, I must now go to class.  Praise Jesus!!!!</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fojah:38648</id>
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    <title>chickcalkdakkgnj</title>
    <published>2005-10-16T19:42:27Z</published>
    <updated>2005-10-16T19:42:27Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Fab and I chatting</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Hello.  I'm fine.  How are you?  There's been so much going on but I love it all nonetheless.  Yay for God!</content>
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    <title>PRAISE GOD!</title>
    <published>2005-10-05T18:46:49Z</published>
    <updated>2005-10-05T19:00:00Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Casting Crowns!!!!</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Wow, so God has been amazing.  I have been on a rollercoaster ride of emotions and events these last two weeks.  I've been stressed over what's going on at home, loving school (as well as people here *wink, wink*), trying to get my feelings across to others but failing, and excited to see miracles happen all around me.  God has recently revealed so much to me.  I feel as if I have already been here for maybe two months but it has been just barely two weeks.  It is as if God slowed down time for me so that I could truly enjoy every single one of his blessings in my life.  Isn't time phenomenal?  I cannot wait for the day that I will not be controlled and restricted by time.  I cannot even imagine how incredible it must be to say that you are outside of time.  No hours, no minutes... just me and my Lord.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I love my God and all He has given me.  Despite all I have been going through He has kept my heart optimistic and my eyes toward His plan.  My classes have taught me so much and I have only had them for a week and a half!  Oh man, I am so overwhelmed with joy and fear, excitement and dread.  How the Lord loves us, we can never know.  To think that God loves you more than the very people who gave you life.  That's unfathomable for my simple human mind.  I know that either of my parents would give their life for me in an instant, the thought would not need to cross their mind.  They would do so without thinking.  Yet my Heavenly Father loves me more than that!  How can that be true?  I cannot understand a stronger love.  God truly is awesome in the true meaning of the word.  St. Augustine once said, "God loves each of us as if there were only one of us."  That's hard to imagine.  If I were the only person on earth, Christ would have still come and sacrificed himself for me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It's crazy how much God can teach you if you just open yourself to Him.  Through my classes, my experiences and my personal reflection I have learned so much about myself recently.  Little things like I am insanely anal about keeping the apartment clean and then much bigger things that will affect the rest of my days.  My fingers cannot keep up with my brain right now.  I wish I could type faster!  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"It is only when we no longer compulsively need someone that we can have a real relationship with them." -Anthony Storr&lt;br /&gt;-I think this is entirely true for every human relationship but absolutely false when it comes to our relationship with our Savior.  I think it is once we come to the breaking point of realizing how much we need God that we can truly have a relationship with Him.  We must break down all walls between Him and us before any sliver of a relationship can be formed.  A friend of mine said recently that in order to have a heart for the Lord, one must constantly be being broken and coming to a better understanding of Him.  Only once we give up everything of our own (since it is from Him that it all came anyway) can we come to Him and say, "I want to be with you.  I want to be your child and have a REAL relationship with you."  The key to a relationship is that you relate.  It is not a one way street.  Whether it be your friend, brother, boyfriend, mom, dad or God; your relationship must be a two way street.  In relation to God we often forget this.  It is supposed to be take AND give, not just take take take.  I love the Lord!  Those are simple words but oh how powerful they are.  People have been killed for speaking those words.  We are so blessed in this country to be able to say that freely without any real persecution.  Sure people may laugh, smirk or make fun but that is not persecution; that is not martyrdom.  I mean, look at the blessings that surround me.  I am sitting in a comfortable apartment with thousands of dollars worth of material things about me, writing about my excitement in the Lord on the internet.  A public and very open form of communication.  Yet no one is knocking down my door or tearing me away.  Truly Awesome.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I will sing to the Lord&lt;br /&gt;And I will lift my voice&lt;br /&gt;For You have heard my cry&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I will sing to the Lord&lt;br /&gt;And I will lift my hands&lt;br /&gt;For You have brought me out of the pit&lt;br /&gt;For You have brought me out of the pit&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;And I'll sing glory, hallelujah&lt;br /&gt;I lift Your name on high&lt;br /&gt;And I'll sing holy, 'cause You're worthy&lt;br /&gt;I'll praise You with the dance&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;/center&gt;&lt;br /&gt;............................................................................................................................................. -Casting Crowns &lt;br /&gt;.................................................................................................................................. "Praise you with the dance"</content>
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    <title>She's got an old dog, it don't like me much</title>
    <published>2005-09-04T07:48:33Z</published>
    <updated>2005-09-04T07:57:56Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Two fans going "whirrrrrr"</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Today was a good day.  I can't explain why exactly but it was.  I was productive, spent time with both family and friends, and even had a few really good laughs.  So here's how it went:&lt;br /&gt;-Slept in early&lt;br /&gt;-Got picked up by Fab in the sweet rental car&lt;br /&gt;-Went to breakfast at Jazzy Bagels (Fab paid because she's pretty much the most generous person ever)&lt;br /&gt;-Got all of the money situation for the apartment figured out and split up all the stuff&lt;br /&gt;-Took a wonderful, long shower and listened to oldies while singing at the top of my lungs&lt;br /&gt;-Cleaned up my room &lt;br /&gt;-Cleaned up the house&lt;br /&gt;-Turned in lots at Goodwill&lt;br /&gt;-Went to library and checked out kickin' CDs&lt;br /&gt;-Turned in lots of books and then got a ton more at Bearly Read Books, including awesome cook books&lt;br /&gt;-Hung out with Josh and Chelsea for a bit&lt;br /&gt;-Chatted with Steve on my way to Wal-Mart, decided to hang out later&lt;br /&gt;-Spent too much time in Wal-Mart returning stuff (I HATE that place)&lt;br /&gt;-Shoveled food in my mouth and gulped down a diet coke&lt;br /&gt;-Went over to Steve's &lt;br /&gt;-Played with Mercury (tsk tsk I know), talked with Steve's mom&lt;br /&gt;-Went to Barnes and Noble, didn't buy anything &lt;br /&gt;-Went to Steve's dad's apartment and listened to Brian Regan's stand up routine (he's hilarious!)&lt;br /&gt;-Went cemetery hunting, saw Steve's old house and neighborhood but couldn't find the cemetery&lt;br /&gt;-Drove down my favorite road, Deardorff&lt;br /&gt;-Made a complete fool of myself, this is a good story.  Steve drove me home and pulled in my driveway.  My car wasn't there so I said, "Um, where's my car?"  It was 11 something at night so it shouldn't be missing.  Him and I both get out of the car and go inside.  I notice my parents are both home and their vehicles are there.  By this point Steve and I were thinking it was stolen (unlikely I know).  I knock on my mom's door and ask her where my car is.  As soon as she says, "What do you mean where's your car?"  I start laughing because I realized that Steve and I had both forgot I drove to his house.  I'm just used to him dropping me off and so is he.  We realized this meant we needed to end the night since we were obviously so tired and out of it, so we went back to his house.&lt;br /&gt;-Attempted to catch a loose dog on the way back to Steve's, no luck&lt;br /&gt;-Said goodnight, laughed over our stupidity, the end.</content>
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    <title>ALIGNVPOIMDFBSPOVKLMV</title>
    <published>2005-08-15T06:09:42Z</published>
    <updated>2005-08-15T06:09:42Z</updated>
    <lj:music>my fan</lj:music>
    <content type="html">You know, the song says "you don't know what you've got till it's gone."  Boy is that ever true.  I never realized how blessed I was.  My life used to be so easygoing, so simple.  The hardest things I had to deal with were my friend's problems or stupid spats with my parents.  Now, it's all different.  I would trade in how everything is now for endless fights with friends and family.  If only that were an option.  If only that would make it all go away.</content>
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  <entry>
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    <title>boop boop shoo bop</title>
    <published>2005-08-05T07:20:16Z</published>
    <updated>2005-08-05T07:23:16Z</updated>
    <lj:music>my three fans blowing to keep me cool</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Things have been going alright.  I have been working extra hours which has been nice for my bank account and my shopping sprees.  I bought a new camera which is pretty dang exciting.  I'll have to post some pictures from it.  My uncle Ray visited us from New York.  He came to take my dad to a Mariners game.  They ended up not going because my dad wasn't up to it.  Instead they went shooting (yes, with a gun) at Mt. Hood Forest.  My uncle left on Sunday after his very short visit with us.  We were Claus family free for only 3 full days.  Tonight we picked up my dad's parents from the airport.  They will be here for two weeks.  It's nice that we have a spare bedroom for them now though.  I work tomorrow.  Then I have to drive to Tualatin to meet a house sitting client and get the keys to the house.  Saturday morning, I meet another house sitting client to get the keys to her house, then off to Lowe's with Steve to hopefully get my money back on my crappy primer, then prettying myself up, and last but definitely not least - going to Fab's brother Gabe's wedding.  She's going to come back to the house with me in Tualatin after the wedding so I don't have to be all alone in an unknown area and home.  I am going to ask the Tualatin lady if I can bring Sierra with me because I am too scared to be there in that big house completely alone.  At least if there is someone around Sierra will let me know, right?  Yeah, so I'll be having a long commute these next couple of days.  It is not worth what they're paying me but oh well.  I came highly recommended so I couldn't say no.  Or could I have?  Oh exciting thing: today I bought stuff for our apartment's kitchen!  I got cookbooks, recipe holders, silverware, organizers, stuff to decorate with and more.  It was awesome.  Jan, my boss' wife is having an estate sale Saturday and Sunday but she let me come pick out whatever I wanted to early.  Nice, huh?  I should probably get to bed in order to ensure I wake up in time for work tomorrow.  On Tuesday night after Katie and Kirstin left I set the wrong time for my alarm and was an hour and a half late to work on Wednesday.  Oops!  I felt really bad.  Ok, good night all and sweet dreams.</content>
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    <title>Sheesh!</title>
    <published>2005-07-21T01:47:06Z</published>
    <updated>2005-07-21T01:47:06Z</updated>
    <lj:music>nada</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Wow, so much has happened since I last wrote anything.  There's no way I could possibly fill in everything.  Basically, I've been spending my time working, sleeping, hanging with the fam and friends, and the occasional hot date with Heath Ledger.  I'm heading up to Spokane this weekend for my cousin's wedding.  That should prove to be interesting.  I'll get to see some peeps from school while I'm there though so I am super excited about that.  Uh, peace.</content>
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    <title>Phew</title>
    <published>2005-06-28T04:56:39Z</published>
    <updated>2005-06-28T04:56:39Z</updated>
    <lj:music>my mom putting away the dishes, I should go help...</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Well, all is well with Rusty Cherry.  It was a simple fix that only cost us $19.  God blessed me with being able to stop at the perfect time.  Thank you Lord!  Woo hoo!  I still have my car!</content>
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  <entry>
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    <title>Aw, crap...</title>
    <published>2005-06-27T06:05:56Z</published>
    <updated>2005-06-27T06:05:56Z</updated>
    <lj:music>not my car's motor that's for sure</lj:music>
    <content type="html">So, tonight God has definitely been teaching me a lesson.  Want to know how I know?  Ok, fine.  On my way to Red Robin to meet up with Kyla and Jess I almost got slammed into by a huge F-150.  I slammed on the brakes and my car slid to inches away from the truck.  Then, Kyla and I were driving back from Red Robin (we were at the light at 182nd and Powell) to go to her house and watch a movie when suddenly...&lt;br /&gt;SMOKE COMES BILLOWING OUT FROM UNDER RUSTY CHERRY'S HOOD!  I freaked out, turned on my four ways and turned off the car.  I told Kyla to get out of the car but realized that we'd be right in the middle of traffic.  Knowing I needed to move my car I called my dad to see if it was ok to turn it back on long enough to move it.  He said yes so I got in the left turn lane and pulled into the parking lot.  We turned off the car, got out and I looked under the hood.  The smoke was coming from oil that had spilled onto my engine.  My dad was on his way so we just waited.  I was yelling about how stupid and mean cops are because one saw us two young girls with a smoking car and four ways on but did nothing.  URGH!  Anyway, long story short: my dad came, AAA came and towed my car to my house, I might have to buy a new car.  I think God wants me to learn how to be humble, fully dependent on Him, and less materialistic.  I just hope that doesn't all have to come from me buying a new car.  I'll post an update tomorrow once I know more.  &lt;br /&gt;&lt;center&gt; *HUGE FATTY SIGH*&lt;/center&gt;</content>
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  <entry>
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    <title>Wowza!</title>
    <published>2005-06-16T07:10:39Z</published>
    <updated>2005-06-16T07:10:39Z</updated>
    <lj:music>the whirring of my parent's freaking loud computer tower</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Oh my freakin' word.  It has been almost exactly a month since I last posted anything.  So much has happened, I don't know where to begin.  I just won't go into detail.  So, here's some stuff that happened:&lt;br /&gt;-got a lot closer to people in the last month of school, sadly&lt;br /&gt;-stressed over finals but got through them&lt;br /&gt;-think I pulled off all A's again&lt;br /&gt;-made an awesome video of school folk&lt;br /&gt;-went to the space needle for the first time all year&lt;br /&gt;-stayed up until 3 the majority of my weekend nights (and weekdays a lot of the time too, tsk tsk)&lt;br /&gt;-got closer to Jesus&lt;br /&gt;-wrote some pretty good papers&lt;br /&gt;-moved out :(&lt;br /&gt;-said too many goodbyes, some harder than others&lt;br /&gt;-came home :) &lt;br /&gt;-went to Cannon Beach with Kellen, his family and Fab (so many stories to tell from this one little trip)&lt;br /&gt;-sat in bird poop, bleh&lt;br /&gt;-checked in at work, I start on the 20th&lt;br /&gt;-sat around being mopey missing my friends&lt;br /&gt;-decided to buy a new digital camera&lt;br /&gt;-learned how to play a Shawn McDonald song from Kellen&lt;br /&gt;-went to my first double feature of the summer with the girls (Fab, Katie, Kirstin)&lt;br /&gt;-and last but not least, my anticipation for next year is building up and I just want it to come right now!!!!!!!!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yeah, that doesn't cover enough of what has happened but I am too lazy.  If anyone actually cares, they'll ask me what I've been up to.</content>
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    <title>The crows were calling your name</title>
    <published>2005-05-17T18:01:30Z</published>
    <updated>2005-05-17T18:01:30Z</updated>
    <lj:music>tweet tweet of the birdies outside my window</lj:music>
    <content type="html">So, having Katie here was a blast.  We walked around Fremont, played on the troll, ate ice cream, did random things with friends, and of course talked nonstop.  It was so great.  I miss that girl.  I went to the Mariners-Yankees game last night.  Tons of fun.  I went with Bekah, Kadie, Katie, Andy, Ryan, Tyler, Shana, Amy and Loreen.  The mariners definitely lost but it was still awesome.  I ate cotton candy for the first time in a LONG time.  I don't what else there is to say.  My parents are coming up Thursday.  It'll be great to see them.  I really miss my family.  I am riding home with them Friday to pick up my car and leave early Saturday morning to get back here in time for Relay for Life.  I have a busy couple of weeks coming up socially and academically.  Start praying now because I'm gonna be needing it!  Love to all.  Toodles!</content>
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    <title>College always was his dream</title>
    <published>2005-05-11T02:59:56Z</published>
    <updated>2005-05-17T17:57:05Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Iris- Goo Goo Dolls</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I just have to say that life has been really good lately.  We went mermaiding last night...  It's a top secret thing you do with your floor.  Definitely a bonding moment for the roommate and I.  Oh man... funny funny funny.  I have been really getting to know some new people better which is wonderful.  I also recently found out that two friends who weren't planning to come next year are going to come next year and that excited me so much.  I would have been really sad if they weren't here next year.  Katie Spencer is coming to visit me this weekend!!!!!!!!  It's the most exciting thing ever.  I cannot even believe she is coming.  It'll be amazing!  I guess that's all there is to tell.  I am doing great but getting sad that school is coming to an end soon.  I'll be glad for school to be over but not for my friends to all be away.  Fab and I found out we are in Robbins Apartments #305 next year so that's exciting but sad at the same time.  We really want to be with our friends but the apartment is really exciting.  It makes it way nicer for people to come visit too...(hint hint).  Oh the other thing that is exciting is the number of people I will see this summer who are from school.  I just found out that one friend will be in Gresham for a ton of the summer.  I am super ecstatic!!!!!  Ok, life must go on outside of livejournal.  Goodbye all.</content>
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    <title>Churklebursh</title>
    <published>2005-05-01T22:51:59Z</published>
    <updated>2005-05-01T22:51:59Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Bekah's cd that I like</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Can I just say that yesterday was incredible?  Oh my word, it was awesome!  Well, it started great because I slept in late.  I got up to take a nice, long shower while singing at the top of my lungs (a must in order to have a good day turn into a GREAT day).  As I was getting dressed I realized that I didn't have shoes to match so Courtney and Kadie practically dressed me.  I was half Courtney, half Talia yesterday :) Then, Bekah and I drove around Ballard trying to find a post office.  We finally found one and it wouldn't send out mail, it would only receive it.  So, we had to find another one.  We came back and met Courtney and Kadie for lunch.  Gwinn was, well, Gwinn.  I needed to study for my big, fatty midterm for Culturally Savvy Christian so we decided to go to Gasworks to study.  It was amazingly beautiful and Bekah had never been there so it was really fun.  Courtney and Fab met us there.  We laid in the sun, took fun pictures, chatted away, stared at the beautiful sight before us and oh yeah, we studied a little too.  We left after a couple hours so we could get back to eat dinner before Gwinn closed.  We ate dinner with Courtney and Fab then came back to the room to get some stuff done.  Bekah and I are so poor that we are having to combine our loads of laundry so as to save on our precious quarters.  I called my parents and chatted with them for a while.  Josh and Chelsea are finishing moving things into their new duplex this weekend.  My parents seemed to be doing well.  My car had to get worked on some more.  Surprise?  NO.  Apparently my laptop is finally at Dell getting fixed.  I may possibly get it back in time for finals!!!  I have gone a half quarter without a computer.  It's been difficult, it's true.  So, after I talked with my parents it was time for our movie.  We rented out the movie lounge to watch "The Two Towers" extended edition.  We got all set up in there but then remembered our laundry.  We ran down and pulled our clothes out of the dryer right as they finished then laid them out all over our room so they wouldn't wrinkle.  It looked like a tornado hit our room.  Oh and we found a pair of underwear in our laundry that was neither of ours.  It was icky.  We both screamed like little girls and threw them in the hallway (we did pick them back up).  What nerds are we.  Anyway, so then we watched the movie.  I was decked out in my roommate's clothes to watch the movie because I wanted to look like a gymnast.  It was funny.  Anyway, that's another story.  So, we had me, Bekah, Christy, Kaylene, Courtney, Kadie, Fab, Steve and Brian watching the movie.  Ok so actually Fab and Brian didn't join until the end but it was a ton of fun.  We had all seen it before so we were commenting through the whole thing.  I hadn't seen the extended edition but I liked it.  Once we were done with the movie we decided that since it was only 11ish we should play a game.  First Steve raided my room for food.  Actually it took a lot of me saying I was ok with him eating my food.  I had to explain that when I offer something it means I'm ok with the person having it.  Sheesh!  We met up with Kellen and his friend Amber to play Cranium.  My awesome team was me, Steve, Kellen, and Courtney.  It was the most amazing game of Cranium EVER!  I loved it so much.  My team won because we were just simply amazing.  It was so great because, I don't know.  It was just great.  Oh and the thing that made me laugh the hardest though was when it was some other team's turn and I see Steve doing something out of the corner of my eye.  I look over and he was trying to move one of the chairs and it just broke!  It was so hilarious!!!  The best part was that no one else saw it so him and I were just dying laughing while everyone else just kept playing the game.  Oh man, I had tears streaming down my face.  The best part was that he didn't know I saw him at first so he just turned and walked away.  Then, he saw me and knew I saw him.  Finally, Kellen caught on and everyone was laughing so hard.  Once, my team creamed the other two teams we just hung out for a while.  Steve, Fab, Bekah and I were just talking about fake IDs, drinking, going to La Center, ya know, good SPU subjects.  Well, that was my night.  We all went our separate ways and swore to do this all again.  &lt;br /&gt;Today was good too.  I went to church with Bekah this morning and met her aunt, uncle and four cousins.  They're really nice.  We came back to meet Kadie and Courtney for lunch.  I just ate a delicious belgian waffle.  Then, we went to Starbucks to get some energy for our day.  I am off to study now and then church tonight.  Man, I'm holy today!</content>
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